Friday, April 18, 2008
It has been a while since I have updated this seemingly dead blog. This is the inevitable result of a hectic schedule. Crisis Core (English version) is finally out! Such a pity that I do not have a PSP. I would have borrow from others just to get the loads of fun from that game. I have always been an avid fan of final fantasy. Any new installment will totally attract me to it.
Ok back to certain issues that have been plaguing my mind. It is becoming rather apparent that certain undesirable behaviour has been surfacing. I do not know whether it is a one time event, or simply a insatiable need for attention. Whatever it may be, its pervasive effects are slowly affecting innocent by-standers too. I guess this would only be deleterious to the our camaraderie. Yet at the same time, I too am flustered over my own personal issues. There is someone... I am not sure whether it is appropriate. But this feeling has never came across to me in such a way before. Prior to this, it was all a facade that was intricately woven to disguise my own weakness. But now it seems that facade has slowly embedded itself into me and taken hold. It is becoming more apparent, making me weaker... The old me is slowly crumbling under this immense emotional distress. Is there anyone who can help me? Recently, my cantankerous behaviour is affecting others around me. Its this indiosyncratic side of me that people around me are not used to.
All I hope for is for their understanding. I do not need them to sympathize with me. My ego simply rejects any form of sympathy. All I want is for them to know how I really feel, for them to listen to me and not refute everything I say. Argh... someone just kill me!
Fight on 9:08 PM
